Everything changes

Things aren't the same anymore, are they?

I'm tired of trying to convince myself that things will go back to how they used to be, letting myself to believe that everything is still gonna be okay.

Stop day-dreaming that time is all it takes to fix things, it is not going to happen.

How I wish I have a time-travelling machine right now, to go back to the past.

Still, I am grateful for what I used to have.

It's just time to grow up.

What's going on?

There are several indications to show how well you are living your life:
1) Career
2) Health
3) Social life
4) Family
5) Love
6) Money

So let's do a measure for myself:
1) F***ed up
2) Terrible
3) So-so
4) Horrible
5) Empty
6) Pathetic

So much for a life huh...

Grandma

Today is the day I went to visit Mom's mom. It's been such a long time since I last visit her.

Today is the first time I talk to her, after so many years. I am praying for her to protect my mom. I am grateful that she gave life to my mom. Since she is the one who brought my mom to this world, she could at least give her some bless and guidance from heaven.

She had worked so hard for her entire life, made so many sacrifices for the sake of the family, and what does she get in return?

I know you are strong and tough mom.
We will always be there for you.

Love,
Dear Daughter

B******

Why are there so many b*st*rds around?
Is it true that there's a game plan and we have to follow the rules?
The game is getting harder and harder.
What's worse?
These people always win.

Rumours

People talk. This is undeniable. I just didn't realize how powerful or destructive it could be until now.

Be it in a organisation, or in a circle of friends, once somebody bad mouth one person, whether with or without the intentions to hurt the person, it can become a really big issue and everybody will use it as a topic for an after-lunch gossip.

Lesson learnt: Don't do stupid things and stay out of trouble.

There is no friends forever or enemy forever. It's getting harder and harder to judge who is telling the truth and who is just acting. You are genuine to people, doesn't mean they are genuine to you too. I still believe I trust people too easily. It's easy for me to tell if i'm an outsider, but when I'm involved, I just don't believe people will come and harm me.

Looks can be deceiving... Just be careful!

Just my 'bad' luck

April was definitely not my month.

Everything in my life is so wrong wrong wrong!

I don't even want to jot it down so that I can pretend that nothing had happened when I look back a few years later.

But I guess problems just won't go away if you leave it there unsolved, right?

May may be my month, I hope.

Smarties

Time to take a break from work and do a bit of refresh on the love and relationship side.

Since the last breakup, A lot of people had been wondering why I'm not in a new relationship yet, they have always thought a lot of guys out there are going after me. Well I don't know if it's true, but sad to say, I haven't met anyone special.

What kind of guy attracts me?

Surprisingly, they're not good-looking guys, not rich guys, not nice guys.

It's smart guys!! and I had only discovered this two hours ago.

Isn't it easy to find some smart guys out there? Yeah, but of course, they must have some other characteristics blended in. Sigh, I guess I'm too picky. That's why I couldn't find my Mr. Right.